Doomscrolling isn't action

Nov. 3rd, 2025 07:53 pm
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A comic by artist David Sipress, showing two people walking side by side down a city sidewalk. One is saying to the other, "My desire to be well informed is currently at odds with my desire to stay sane."

Most days for me it isn’t even a question of remaining sane, but rather being able to focus on anything long enough to engage meaningfully with it. You could say that as a technically retired person seeking to spin up a freelance business, I’ve got nothing but time to engage with a lot of things, and in a sense that’s true. On the other hand, when I don’t have a lot of set projects to work on, it’s a lot easier to get distracted from the main task that would ameliorate that, i.e., drumming up more work. Between the ongoing government shutdown and the effects this is having on health insurance rates (as someone who self-insures this definitely applies to me), SNAP benefits (applicable to lots of people I know and more than likely many who you do, too), and longer-term consequences that will take awhile to fully manifest, it’s hard to turn my eye off the news and onto the business of everyday life.

I’m not sure if this is what the 1960s activists who coined the phrase meant by “the personal is political,” but it’s increasingly hard to avoid knowing about how shenaniganery (totally a word) in the halls of power turns the business of everyday life into a series of reactions. At least one person I know is fighting a cancellation of benefits that will literally kill them. Making phone calls (which takes hours because that’s how long it takes them to get through), submitting reams of documentation, making more phone calls, being told five different things by five different people, and all of this because they aren’t able to actually work a regular job.

Yeah, I’ve heard stories about people scamming the system. Sometimes the tellers even know the scammers personally. But I’ve never known a single person receiving SNAP or other benefits who didn’t need them. Some of them were or are getting help from friends and family, too, including me. But people who say that this kind of aid, and maybe charity, ought to be the entirety of what’s available really have no idea how great the need is.

And that’s just one example.

Just today I started reading a book that I’ll be reviewing for Library Journal that has this quote, so indicative of what I’m talking about: “it is far easier to go for a walk in the woods than it is to stop monsters from marching to power.” Especially since the monsters will likely march whether one goes for a walk in the woods or not. I see that not as an argument for not even trying to stop the monsters, but for recognizing that stopping them will take a lot of effort from a lot of people. Corollary to that, if the monsters do march to power, don’t assume that nobody tried to stop them. I’ve been alive long enough to remember efforts to prevent or at least hinder the current state of affairs, the roots of which go back further than we generally realize.

That’s the thing about studying history; it’s not so much that those who don’t study history are doomed to repeat it, as those who do study history find out that there’s always another thing that came before.

In practical terms, I’ve had to put a hard limit on how much time I spend each day absorbing the news. This used to be a lot easier to do in the days of broadcast TV and physical newspapers, but it’s still possible. At a certain point you hit diminishing returns, anyway, and it takes time and energy away from taking action.

It also necessitates curating where you’re getting that news from, which is the kind of thing I used to teach as a research librarian focused on information literacy. I’ll be writing more about that soon, I think.

I Voted

Nov. 3rd, 2025 07:38 pm
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I voted today. Yes, it's a day early. Election Day is tomorrow— Tuesday, November 4.  But one of the nice things about California is that the state offers registered voters numerous ways to vote, including dropping off a ballot in a signed, sealed envelope at ballot drop-boxes in convenient places like my local library.

Dropping off my ballot a day early (Nov 2025)

This year's ballot was pretty short. There were only 3 items: a statewide proposition, a county officer race, and a county proposition.

The statewide proposition is Prop 50, The Election Rigging Response Act. It allows a one-time, mid-decade redrawing of Congressional districts and specifies that it will be done by politicians instead of California's non-partisan redistricting commission.

I have always been a big supporter of non-partisan redistricting. I gladly voted for it when California passed it years ago, and I have urged that the practice be adopted elsewhere. But the situation is different in 2025. Whereas gerrymandering used to be something that politicians did but didn't admit to, it's now something that President Trump openly calls for in the national media— and his followers not only don't criticize but eagerly line up to do. If we on the political left want any chance at a majority in Congress— via representation that is commensurate with our popular vote— we must do as the other side is already doing.

One of the simple/simplistic arguments against Prop 50 I've seen is the line, "All it takes to end gerrymandering is for one side to stop doing it first." What a fucking idiot the person who said that is. One side did stop it first. One side did it first, and the other side went the opposite direction and raised their art of electoral manipulation to new heights with modern technology.

So now I'm voting for something that's against my preferences. It's against my preferences but it's still the least bad option. (Also, we're not giving up the preferable option— nonpartisan redistricting— for good. We're just making a one-time exception.)

Speaking of least bad options, the one county-wide race, the one for Tax Assessor, is also one where I picked the least bad option. Not that there was anything actually bad about the candidate I voted for, but the others all did/said things that are disqualifying bad IMO.

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A week ago I wrote Signs Of Life about how I'd been "caving" (hiding in my proverbial cave) the week before and finally got out, a little bit, on the weekend. This past week and weekend the pattern repeated, for better and for worse. For worse, last week was another week of caving. The DFC problem I wrote about with respect to blogging is a struggle with life in general right now. But for better I had a closer-to-the-old-normal weekend.

Yeah, Saturday I took it easy. I already wrote about that. I was dealing with side effects of Covid-19 booster in addition to my (now) usual lethargy. Oh, but I did enjoy a soak in the hot tub and I also did some vacuuming in the house I'd been putting off for two weeks. Then Sunday I put the pantry back together!

We put the pantry back together after clearing it to repair a ceiling leak (Nov 2025)

Recall we'd cleared out the pantry, even removing the shelves from the wall, when we discovered a ceiling leak. That was... back in mid-August! 😳 Repairs took weeks to get scheduled and were only finished about two weeks ago. I procrastinated re-hanging the shelves right after that— which turned out to be a good thing because there was another leak just a few days later. 😡 It took a few days until I was able to deal with that problem— which turned out to be a one-time leak from our clothes washer. Then it was another week until I had energy to deal with the pantry. But finally I did it.

Sunday I cleaned and re-hung the shelves. Seeing it ready to go inspired Hawk to help, and together then we refilled the shelves. No, they're not as full as they were... 11 weeks ago when all this plumbing crud started. We moved some of our pantry contents to storage in the garage. We'll shift it back gradually over the coming week. Or maybe it'll wait until next weekend.

Oh, but this weekend wasn't just about cleaning and putting things back together. We also were social! We met [personal profile] some_other_dave for dinner Friday night then had a couple of friends over Sunday afternoon/evening to play cards and get dinner out together.


Jury Duty Summons

Nov. 2nd, 2025 03:23 pm
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A few days ago I got a summons for jury duty. My first thought was, "Another one so soon?" I last had jury duty 2½ years ago. That seems recent by comparison because my last jury duty before that was 10 years earlier, and my last before that was... 24 years earlier! I don't know what the normal frequency of jury duty is. 24 years seemed anomalous... but so does 2.5.

My second thought upon reading the summons postcard was, "Wait, this is Thanksgiving week!" I already have travel plans for that week— and I don't wish to cancel or rearrange them. "It's like they're checking who hates their family," Hawk quipped.

Fortunately the courts allow one free deferral, no justification required. I registered online today and requested to be reassigned a later week.


Falling Forward

Nov. 2nd, 2025 09:29 am
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This morning was the time change due to the end of Daylight Saving Time. Did you remember to change your clocks? Fall Forward, Spring Back. For more and more of us the answer is No... because they change automatically. The main places I check for what time it is are my phone and my computers. They all know how to change the time automatically. That means no more having to remember to Fall Forward or Spring Back.

Then there are the clocks on things like the stove and the microwave. We'll have to reset those manually. I intend not to have my kitchen appliances be "smart" or internet connected as long as I can! And there are the clocks in the cars. I'm pretty sure one of them is old and dumb enough not to change its clock on its own. The other, I forget whether the onboard computer takes care of that. This is the car that phones up the dealer to carp about brake fluid, so I hope it can use similar technology to do something actually useful like save me from having to fix the clock. Update: Nope! The car can pick up a phone to call the dealer and tell them what service it needs, but it can't set its own clock ±1 hour. 🙄

Ah, but Falling Forward. I fell forward this morning with the time change, waking up around 6am when there was already light in the sky. Actually I'd been tossing and turning much of the night. I think that's a continuing reaction to the Covid booster shot I got on Friday. Typical for me is the side effects kicking in in the range of 16-40 hours. I'd gone to be early last night, like 8pm, with chills. So by 6am— plus 1 hour due to Falling Forward— it was past time to get up anyway. The fact there was light in the sky early helped. The downside will be this evening when it's dark at 5pm.

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I woke up this morning aching all over. Actually, I tossed and turned from sometime in the middle of the night, achy in various places. It wasn't surprising since I got my Covid-19 booster shot yesterday. And a flu shot, too. But the Covid booster has pretty much always left me feeling achy and tired the next day.

I finally dragged myself out to the hot tub for a soak this morning. I say finally because I've been telling myself, "A soak in the hot tub tonight would feel really nice" all week. But then I've felt tired and lazy and have just laid around the house instead of going out. Today I decided Just Do It after despite the body aches. Actually it was because of the body aches I went. I hoped the soak would help! Alas it did not. I was still achy after.

In a way, being tired and lethargic this morning helped me match Hawk's energy level. She's still healing from her surgery two weeks ago. She also recently adjusted her pain medication because the previous regimen she was on left her with a lot of residual pain and caused nausea. By increasing one med and decreasing another, she's now reduced the pain and gotten rid of the nausea— hooray! But she's traded one side effect for another, in that now she's more tired out. After she almost face-planted in her hash browns at Denny's the other night, last night she almost face-planted in her bowl of chicken tortilla soup at a favorite Mexican restaurant.

Update: Although painkillers didn't do anything for my body aches the aches kind of wore off on their own after lunch. Hawk and I then went shopping at Costco. It was a lot of walking for her, on crutches— about a mile! She's tired after that though not sleepy tired. She's spent the afternoon crafting downstairs while I've vegged with my computer.

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October 2025 was my slowest month for blogging in years. A few quick stats:


  • I posted 34 journal entries in October

  • At a rate of just over 1.0 per day it's the slowest month I've had in... checks spreadsheet... 4½ years.

  • Yes, I keep a spreadsheet. 🤣

  • While I averaged one journal per day (actually 1.09/day) I didn't post one journal every day. In fact I missed nine days in October.

  • I thought that would be my biggest number of missed days in, like, 10 years, but it turns out it's also just 4½ years. Basically, April 2021 was an unusually slow month for me. (I figured that not by looking at a spreadsheet but by eyeballing my monthly blogging by year.)


Okay, those are the stats. But the real question is "why". Why did I experience such a slowdown in my writing in October— especially compared to the relatively high 70 journal entries I wrote just two months earlier in August? Metrics don't answer meaningful question such as that though they at least tell a person where/when to ask.

The answer in this case is simple. I just didn't want to. Oh, I had more things I could've written about. There were things that happened in October I could have written about. There were things in my backlog from months earlier I could have written about. But so much of the time I just didn't care.

Earlier this year I wrote about the power of the phrase DFC— as in, I Don't Fucking Care. Used positively, it's liberating. It's a way to Marie Kondo through your life, filtering out what's not worth your time or frustration.

The downside of DFC, or Kondo-ing, is that when you're disaffected or depressed, everything can start to fail the question, "Does this bring me joy?" And that's what happened to me in October. A combination of factors, from me feeling physically listless, to the changing season signalling an end to our summery outdoors activity, to Hawk's surgery and recovery basically grounding both of us for weeks, have aligned to leave me feeling like I just don't care about doing any of the few options left.

Hallow-Whatnow?

Oct. 31st, 2025 09:07 pm
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Tonight is Halloween. Or as I've called it recently, Hallow-whatnow?

I don't celebrate. And not only don't I celebrate, but fewer and fewer people around me celebrate. Oh, the stores are all festooned with "PLeAsE GiVe uS MoNeY!11!" holiday decorations as early as August. But as I do less and less shopping in stores I'm visually assaulted with such things less and less. Plus, by the start of October Christmas decorations are already displacing Halloween decorations even as Halloween is still 4 weeks away. 🤣

Like I said, though, fewer people in my orbit celebrate. Halloween is a nonevent in our neighborhood. We're a townhouse community, so few people living here have kids, and those who do have kids have mostly younger kids— mostly too young to go trick-or-treating. And those who do have kids also tend to bundle them into their luxury SUVs and take them to carefully controlled parties. Most of them never play in the community any of the other 364 days of the year... why would their parents suddenly feel it's safe to let them walk around in the dark and knock on doors tonight?

Even my company hasn't done anything for Halloween the past few years. In the past we'd have a small costume contest. Small, as in only a few people would participate. But at least there was something. Or a few people would act on their own to dress in costumes, and it would be amuse to see them on videoconferences. This year there was nothing. No contests, no announcements, no funny surprises on camera.

I've always been a bit "Bah, humbug!" about holiday celebrations but this year it's disappointing there's been basically nothing.

Celebratory Dinner at... Denny's

Oct. 31st, 2025 09:24 am
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I figured that Hawk would want to go out for dinner yesterday after getting her cast replaced with a boot that lets her walk better. I thought that would likely mean one of her favorite sit-down restaurants, Vive Sol or La Fiesta, or perhaps her favorite fast-casual place with great guacamole, Speedy's Tacos. Instead she announced yesterday evening, "I want pancakes. We could go to IHOP, or Denny's, or...."

I suggested we try IHOP if only because I ate at Denny's about 2 years ago and haven't been to an IHOP in possibly 10 years so it'd at least be a newer experience. But alas the nearest IHOPs are a few towns away, and in evening rush hour traffic the novely wasn't worth the commute. One of the remaining Denny's is just 1.5 miles away. So Denny's it was!

For a celebratory dinner Hawk picked... Denny's (Oct 2025)

I went into Denny's with low expectations. Hawk wanted pancakes, and I figured they'd do a decent job of that. Eggs, too. But I didn't want breakfast all day. Heck, I don't even want breakfast food at breakfast hour. (I hate the taste of eggs and regard pancakes as carbs-and-sugar bombs my blood sugar level does not need.) I figured there may not be much else on the menu except for burgers anymore.

I wound up ordering a pot roast sandwich. It was small though came with a huge portion of fries filing out the plate. The meat on the sandwich was surprisingly tender. Hawk was surprised at how fast it was ready. I wasn't.... I figure it came in a boil-in bag from Sysco.

Toward the end of dinner Hawk's medications started hitting her pretty hard. She was feeling a bit dizzy and rested her head on the table. "It's good we went to Denny's," she quipped. "They're accustomed to people passed out with their faces on the table."

On the 14th Day, Hawk Gets the Boot

Oct. 30th, 2025 08:25 pm
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Today is Day 14 of Hawk's post-op recovery. At the time of her surgery they wrapped her foot in a half-cast, half-splint with strict instructions to put no weight on it. That made her close to immobile. She could hop around short distances with the help of of a pair forearm crutches— "short distances" being like from the bed or sofa to the bathroom. Going between floors in our vertical townhouse took focus and real energy. She tried to limit herself to one trip up and down per day. Today she had a followup visit at the clinic.

For the trip to the clinic Hawk used a knee scooter. It does no good in the house because there are stairs everywhere. But it's great for covering long, flat distances like from the parking spot in the garage to the clinic's front door, and from the front door to the orthopedic department. She zoomed along on the scooter, going faster than me, walking normally. Though heavy closed doors were her bane as it was difficult to balance while exerting enough force to open them. I caught up to her every time there was a door. 😅

At the clinic today they removed the cast and replaced it with a bandage wrap and a boot.

Hawk's cast is replaced with a boot (Oct 2025)

The boot can be taken on and off. And even the wrap can be removed (by us) at home tomorrow. After that she just needs to cover her foot with a sock. And before very careful with it when it's out of the boot, of course, because it's still healing. She'll need the boot for at least another 3 weeks, possibly up to 6 weeks.

The switch to the boot has made her more mobile. Now she can put partial weight on her foot. She still uses the forearm crutches to walk, but she can move faster with them because she can put her injured foot down to balance instead of having to hop along on one leg.

Hawk celebrated the change today by asking that we visit a local bakery that has her favorite, princess cake. She boldly decided to walk (hobble) from the parking area to the cafe. It was across the street and partway up the block. She was okay getting there though it took more out of her than she expected. So she bought all the princess cake they had in the display (5 pieces) and asked me to pull up the car for her hobble back out.


Signs of Life This Weekend

Oct. 27th, 2025 09:57 am
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I've been "caving" recently. As in, hiding in my cave. Oh, there are outward signs of life. I show up to work, I'm cheery at work, I've gone out for lunch most days this past week. But inside I've felt dead. I haven't wanted to do anything. For example, I haven't even been able to get myself out to the hot tub to enjoy a soak. Oh, I still still make forward plans for it. "I'd like to use the hot tub after dinner tonight," I tell myself. Then when 8pm or 9pm comes around I decide I'm just as relaxed lying on the floor in the house and would rather not change into swim trunks and go outside.

Things have looked up a bit this past week. I got back on the cadence of blogging. I had 7 "skip days" earlier this month, days when I didn't write to my journal. I think the last time I had that many skip days in a month was 10 years ago. But now I've been writing daily for a week-plus, including some days where I've posted twice. Small steps forward.

And this weekend I finally mustered the will to go out to the hot tub! I was going to do it Saturday morning but then the I-don't-wannas hit... but then I did it Sunday morning.

And Sunday afternoon I did a legit, major chore by dealing with the clothes washer. And good news after my check-it-out and clean-it-up efforts: it's not broken!

Dances With Washing Machines

Oct. 26th, 2025 06:34 pm
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Our clothes washing machine has been on time-out since Wednesday evening when it leaked. Since then Hawk has been shopping around online figuring out what washer we'd it with. We were deliberative about buying this one 10+ years ago; we'll be deliberative about the one that replaces it. Meaning, we've bought a short subscription to Consumer Reports (again) and we're checking reviews to select models that have above-average ratings for cleaning effectiveness, water and power efficiency, and low noise, at modest cost.

But before we click "Buy Now" we figured we'd give our current washer another chance. It seemed just barely possible, and an experience plumber who helped us look at it agreed, that water pressure spikes from water main work in the neighborhood that day could've made the leak a fluke. Today I finally had the energy to pull out the washer and take a look at it.

Pulling out the clothes washer to clean up after a leak (Oct 2025)I unplugged the washer, disconnected the drain and supply lines, and taped all the cables and pipes out of the way. Then I trundled the washer out of the laundry closet. I had to unhook a fan-fold door to help get it out. (Little problem there. I've adjusted, removed and installed fan-fold doors in our house before.)

The floor beneath the washer is pretty messy. You can see that in the photo above. The mess there is years of dust bunnies, presumably from the dryer, mixed with water from the washer's leak a few days ago. Once I had the washer out of the way it wasn't too hard to clean it up with a water spritzer and a roll of paper towels.

I took the opportunity while the washer was moved out of the closet to do some additional cleaning. I pulled out the soap tray and gave it a thorough cleaning in the sink, with soap and hot water. We've never done a full cleaning on it, and was moldy. I also cleaned the rubber grommet and around the glass window of the door where it makes a seal, in case dirt or grime there was the source of the leak.

Speaking of finding the source of the leak, I tipped the washer onto its face to see if I could find a leak leak on the underside. No dice; the underside has a metal cover bolted in place with several bolts. I decided to skip it.

Again, our thinking here with cleaning up the washer was not just to clean up the space for a replacement but to give the old washer one more try. Just in case the leak was not a fluke, though— and I've got to admit, the chances it was just a fluke are, like, 1 in 10— I went out and bought a spill pan for the washer. It was $31 plus tax at Home Depot for one that's cheap plastic but fits nicely.

The washer back in place, now with a spill pan (Oct 2025)

Here you can see the washer moved back into place, sitting atop its new spill catcher. I've got a (light) load of laundry in there. I'll know in about 90 minutes how much of a fluke Wednesday's leak was.

Update: The load of wash completed with no leaks.

And on the Eighth Day, We Went Out

Oct. 25th, 2025 09:08 pm
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Today is Day 8 of Hawk's surgery recovery. The surgery was a week ago Friday. She's close to non-mobile, with one of her feet in a half-cast and unable to put any weight on it. For 7½ days she's limited herself to hobbling around the house with a pair of forearm crutches— and minimizing even that. But late this afternoon she decided it was time to Get Out.

The occasion was nothing grand. The impetus was that she'd just sold some books on eBay and wanted to get them shipped. I could've taken them to the depot for her. I mean, I'd already searched our Hobbit hole for an appropriately sized box, weighed the books (for postage), packed them carefully in the box, and printed and attached the mailing label. Driving them to the nearest postal counter open on Saturday afternoon— which wasn't even our city's lone remaining post office; it was the print-and-ship desk at an Office Depot store— was not a big ask. But I gather she was getting cabin fever after staying within these 4 walls for nearly 8 days. I understand.

I pulled the car around to the front door for her to hop in. She had her crutches with her for hopping, plus— in the back of the SUV— her knee scooter for wheeling around.

At the Office Depot she decided to hop as it wasn't too far. I carried the books box. It was compact but weighed nearly 20 pounds. Books can be heavy.

The dropoff at Office Depot seemed anticlimactic. All that effort just to hand over one box for shipping. So Hawk suggested again that we go out to eat for dinner. Cabin fever!

Armadillo Willy's Reborn 

We agreed on Empire Armadillo. For those familiar with Silicon Valley, Empire Armadillo is Armadillo Willy's reborn. The local chain Armadillo Willy's went out of business a few months ago. One local guy played the Victor Kiam "I liked the food so much I bought the company!" card and... well, bought the company's locations and equipment out of bankruptcy. Apparently he couldn't buy the name because that was held separately. But the restaurant in Sunnyvale is open again, same location, same food, basically the same recipes.

Except it's... also a bit better? The infusion of some new cash has let them upgrade a few interior fixtures that were looking long in the tooth. And the staff seems cheerful now, as opposed to the last time we went to the Sunnyvale location under the previous ownership a few years ago, when all the staff seemed mentally checked out out and the food was haphazardly prepared. That's why we stopped going for a few years. Anyway, now Armadillo is back, and they seem to be good again.

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It's time for another chapter in the story mystery of the church up the hill. This is now part 3 of the story. Originally I had thought I'd be able to fit it all in one journal entry but as I started writing the story it grew. It grew first from one blog to three. Then as I took a slight detour into writing about AI and photography in part 2 I realized the story will take 4, maybe 5, chapters to complete.

As I noted in the previous chapter, my dad lost his job when I was a little kid. The retail chain he worked for went out of business.

AI rendering of when a chain of stores closed and everyone lost their jobs (Google Gemini, Oct 2025)

Dad's job wasn't a great job. The hours were brutal. As a store manager he was salaried, not hourly, so he didn't get paid for his extra work. And extra work was required every time a store employee called in sick and no substitute could be found, and every time there was a break-in afterhours and the alarm company and the police called. The way my mom told the story, years later, break-in attempts happened regularly, like at least once a month. The store was in a rough neighborhood.

Dad's job wasn't a great job, but at least it paid the bills. I think. Then he lost the job, with little or warning.

This was the mid 1970s. As I noted in the previous chapter, the economy sucked. Technically the US had just pulled out of its worst recession since the Great Depression, but hiring had not yet resumed. I imagine younger folks today who lived through the jobless recovery of the Great Recession in the late 00s understand the pattern.

Speaking of younger generations and modern patterns, my parents in the mid 1970s did something that's familiar to a younger generation today: they hustled. With "real" jobs not really hiring, my parents both took on whatever odd jobs they could find. Between hustling and scrimping and borrowing, they kept a roof over our heads and food on the table.

AI rendering of my parents excited they managed to pay the mortgage after my dad lost his job (Google Gemini, Oct 2025)

This is where some of my earliest memories meld in with the stories my parents later told. Oddly I don't remember my parents being stressed around that time, or unhappy. Probably that's because I was too young to recognize such emotions. It could also be that my parents hid their stress and worries well from us younger kids. One snapshot memory I do have from back then is my parents giving each other a high five when my mom said, "We did it! We paid the mortgage this month."

I also have early memories of some of the jobs my parents did during that time of hustling. My mom started selling Tupperware. Many of my earliest memories are of riding with her in the car as she drove back and forth to the Tupperware warehouse. We'd return with a suitcase full of products she'd sell via Tupperware parties.

A modern pic of 1970s vintage Tupperware (courtesy of Adrian Baldwin)

I wish I could say that Tupperware was how my parents pulled out of the economic nosedive after my dad lost his job. I wish I could say that Tupperware was how my mom built  a lasting and fulfilling career as an entrepreneur— which was part of the Women's Liberation pitch Tupperware was making back in the 1970s. Alas, I'm not sure my mom ever made any money with Tupperware.

That's because Tupperware was, for many years, a multi-level marketing (MLM) organization. In MLMs most distributors make very little money. See Wikipedia's Tupperware page, for example.

Mom stopped selling Tupperware after a short period of time. Likely that's because she netted little or no money after a lot of work— work planning and presenting at Tupperware parties, hustling to get people to place orders (remember, in a tough economy), then having to pick up & deliver the orders once they were shipped to the local warehouse. But while the dream of making it a sustainable career disappeared quickly, the Tupperware itself did not. Mom bought a number of pieces herself, because they were useful. And they lasted. The bright, 1970s vintage colors and those fluted lids were a mainstay in our house for many years after.

To be continued....

Database maintenance

Oct. 25th, 2025 08:42 am
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Good morning, afternoon, and evening!

We're doing some database and other light server maintenance this weekend (upgrading the version of MySQL we use in particular, but also probably doing some CDN work.)

I expect all of this to be pretty invisible except for some small "couple of minute" blips as we switch between machines, but there's a chance you will notice something untoward. I'll keep an eye on comments as per usual.

Ta for now!

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"I'd like to attend as a fly on the wall." It's a line I hear frequently, particularly in sales. People want to join a meeting to listen in and see what's happening— but not be recognized as a participant and certainly not be asked to do anything, including stating an opinion or answering a question.

Having a few "fly on the wall" non-participants generally works okay. But what if everyone wants to be a fly on the wall?

AI rendering of attending a business meeting where everyone else is "a fly on the wall" (Google Gemini, Oct 2025)

I had a meeting like that yesterday. My sales colleague and I began a sales meeting with a customer. As we opened the videoconference very quickly 6 people joined in. We didn't recognize any of them by name. And they all had camera off and microphone on mute.

We introduced ourselves and asked them to introduce themselves. Nothing. We prompted them with a simple question about how familiar they are with our software— software their company has licensed for several years. Again, nothing. I'd say "crickets", but there wasn't even a chirp. They all sat there silently like flies on the wall.

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When I spotted a new leak in the ceiling of the kitchen pantry yesterday, I was pissed. Pissed, because it was just two days after we'd finished getting another leak repaired. A repair that we'd waited 8 weeks to get started. And this new leak was occurring just 2 feet over from the previous one! Had the repairmen screwed up the repair that badly?

I did a bit of troubleshooting on the problem myself. It didn't seem like it was the same leak as before just 2 feet over. It seemed like it might actually be a problem with the washing machine... which, yes, is about 2 feet over from where the toilet upstairs is! But could it really be such a coincidence that our washer sprung a leak right after the toilet was fixed? And right after plumbers were working on the water main outside all day? I was too pissed to want to run a full troubleshooting process myself. Thankfully the owner of the plumbing company agreed to come over.

The plumber and I worked through the troubleshooting process together. He saw my reason for suspecting the washing machine— dampness on the floor underneath it— and helped me shift it around a bit to pinpoint the problem more precisely. It wasn't a loose hookup problem or a leak in a supply hose or drain hose. It was some kind of leak from the body of the washing machine itself.

So, good news/bad news: It's not a plumbing leak. It won't be another $13,000 job that takes 8 weeks to schedule. But it looks like now we need to buy a new washer.


Plumbing Leak in the Ceiling - AGAIN

Oct. 23rd, 2025 12:23 pm
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Late afternoon Wednesday my ears were drawn to a drip-drip sound coming from the kitchen. The water had been off for several hours as plumbers fixed a leak in a neighboring building. (Some of the mains in our community have broken or missing valves, so sometimes fixing a problem in one building requires shutting off water to multiple buildings.) I wondered if maybe I left the faucet in the kitchen open slightly and now water was flowing again. No... it was a leak. A leak from the ceiling. Water was dripping down from the ceiling of our kitchen pantry. Yes, this is the same pantry where we just got a leak fixed a few days ago! 😡

Instead of creating a bulge in the painted drywall like the last leak, this one was pouring out through the fixture around the fire sprinkler. No, the sprinkler itself wasn't running; water was pouring out around it. That indicated water was leaking somewhere in the wall, flowing along the pipe, and coming out through the ceiling where there's an opening for the sprinkler.

Well, it's a good thing I've been lazy about putting the shelves back in our pantry after it was finished on Monday. If I'd put everything back in there Monday or Tuesday, I'd have had to take it all back out Wednesday.

We called the property management company to report the problem. They got in touch with the owner of the plumbing company that fixed our leak. The owner himself would come out Wednesday night to diagnose the problem— to determine if it's a failure in the repair his team just finished, or some odd consequence of the water shutoff on Wednesday, or a completely unrelated new problem that just coincidentally happened on the heels of the previous problems.

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I began a journey down memory lane yesterday when I wrote a journal entry about how my parents never liked attending the church of their faith that was right in our neighborhood. Instead of a short walk up the hill behind our house to the local church where we might see our own neighbors, we piled in the car and drove 20 minutes each way to a church in the next town over.

As I wrote in that blog, my parents were evasive about why they preferred the one far away. My parents, especially my father, gave only vague non-answers whenever I wondered. After a while I stopped asking.

The truth about the church up the hill came out decades later, not long before my father passed away. He knew he was in his last few months of life. He told me one of his goals then was to square things with relatives who were estranged from him. I wasn't estranged by any stretch of the imagination. I was traveling coast-to-coast every few weeks to visit and support him. During one of our bedside chats he told me the story. Well, not the whole story. He gave me just the one or two missing pieces that allowed me connect up the puzzle from other things he'd told me over the years and from things I remember from as far back as my own early childhood.

The story goes back to the mid 1970s when my dad lost his job as a store manger in a retail chain.

AI rendering of when a chain of stores closed and everyone lost their jobs (Google Gemini, Oct 2025)

The mid 1970s were a tough time in the US. The country was just coming out of a deep economic recession spurred by the first oil embargo. The recession was probably why his employer folded. And even though the recession was over by the way economists define it, it wasn't over by the way ordinary people might define it. Companies were failing. Those that weren't failing still weren't hiring. The unemployment rate was above 7%. So when my dad's employer shut down and sent everyone to the unemployment line, finding new work wasn't easy. It took my dad months... maybe even a year or more.

By the way, yes, I'm using AI image generation to help illustrate this story. No, I don't have real photos to share from that time. I was too young even to hold a camera then. I mean, I was still filling diapers when this shit went down. And my parents never snapped many photos during my childhood. That always struck me as weird when I was older, because my dad had been a semi-pro photographer when he was in high school and college.

I saw some of his 1960s era work decades later. It was in a box from his mother, who'd just passed away at age 101. It looked good. He could have made it a career. Why did he put his cameras down and then not pick up another one for, like, 40 years? And also, his mom kept copies his vintage work as mementos; he never did. I might've asked him "why?" about either of those facts, but as I already explained early in this story, my dad was famously loath to answer such questions. In that respect he was like a perpetual pouty teenager giving guttural one-word answers.

Anyway, AI image generation. I'm using it here because I think telling the story with some pictures improves if, even if the pics are not authentic. For one, having pictures beats walls of text. Two, I've iterated on the prompts for these pictures to have them reflect, accurately, particular elements of the story. Of course it's impossible to have them accurately reflect everything, even the spotty parts I remember in snapshot memories from my early childhood. I've got a funny story to share about some of the prompting I had to do while creating an image I'll use later in the story. I'll share that anecdote when we get there.

To be continued....

"We're Going to Need a Bigger Fridge"

Oct. 22nd, 2025 09:23 am
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There's a classic line from the 1975 movie Jaws. After the titular great white shark appears on the screen for the first time, actor Roy Schneider turns to the sailors hunting the monster and dead-pans, "You're going to need a bigger boat."

I'm not sure that line was all that big when the movie was first released in 1975, or even a few years later when it was making the rounds through theaters again and became popular among my childhood friends, but in recent years it has become a meme.

"You're going to need a bigger boat" - Roy Schneider in Jaws (1975)

And, OMG, this movie is now 50 years old, and a throwaway, ad-libbed line from it is an Internet meme?

Yes, the line was unscripted. Behind-the-scenes stories tell us that the actors and crew were frustrated about the small boat used for filming scenes at sea. They felt the producers were being excessively cheap because the small size made it hard to work with given all the things involved in filming— the cameras, lights, microphones, and all the crew to operate them. "You're/We're going to need a bigger boat" became a running joke among the film crew, who repeated it every time the small watercraft made their work difficult to do.

Then actor Roy Schneider, playing the police chief in the story, ad-libbed the line during filming the scene where the great white shark, Jaws, appeared on camera for the first time. The cast and crew LOLed. Director Steven Spielberg thought it was funny, too— though without the guffaws from behind the camera. He worked it into the movie with some extra footage to set up the (now classic) line properly.

So, here we are 50 years later now, and this line just became relevant to me, personally. We're going to need a bigger fridge!

We're going to need a bigger fridge! (Oct 2025)

That's what I said to Hawk the other night after we'd ordered in pizza. Mine had come in an oversized box (hers was smaller). When I went to put the leftovers in the fridge, using the original boxes for simplicity sake, mine was a few inches too wide to fit into our generously sized side-by-side refrigerator!

Of course we didn't buy a new fridge. 🤣 I mean, the characters in the movie were facing a killer shark, and they didn't buy a new boat. All I'm facing here is half a leftover pizza. 🤣 I stacked the slices on a small baking pan and wrapped it in foil to keep for a day or two.

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